Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.
Hi,
I haven't been here in years Cuz my life I though I was going to escape this hell. But instead I have become trapped in a prison of hell tease with paradise only to be locked in a caged. I havent cut in so long. But my freedom has been taken from me. With the world in panic, government in crisis, ppl like me cant get the help they need to escape hell. I'm married in a family that is the worse kind of crazy. Provide for you to make them look like saint but in reality you cant take a shit with out them knowing. Every you say and do is known. Your so cut off if you could signal for help so much red tape you rather die then live with the physical pain and living on street for nothing. At least the prison you currently are in is comfortable, you have a roof and food if you can stomach it. Hoping paradise will come soon. I just dont know how much more I can take. Faith is running low.
Ok I have a confession unless u have not known me for the last 30 years you will panic from this post!!!!!!! WARNING TRIGGERING!!!! TURN BACK NOW !!!!! IM NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR ACTIONS AFTERTHIS!!!!!@
If you ever wonder how songs like well top of my head " Evanscence Tourniquet " someone had to have those feelings and survive to tell the story!!!!!
I had a near death experience when I had a tubal pregnancy that bursted I almost bleed to death at 4am on the table no family!!!!
I can visit that end and come back anytime I need to! IN a safe way!!!!
Tonight was one of those nights I dont feel comfortable explaining what set it off!!! Too many eyes!!!! But here is one of the darkest poetry I have written and shared in a decade this is huge it means I'm ready to move past it!!!!!!
The best thing you ever taught me daddy was to protect my heart from heartache.
What you didnt prepare me from was the pain and loneliness of this life lifestyle.
You never warned me of the mental issues that might complicate it Cuz you were to embarrassed. Now I'm left to my own devices at a young age alone cold and hungry depended on a man like you taught me only to be used and abused just like u taught me.
This wicked cycle has left me in a prison of my own mind that you never taught me to deal with Cuz I was your only girl you raised.
Left broken and battered worried if this pandemic has taken u to. I'm leftTrll trying to teach this family some selfilessiness. I hear ya ok and I finially break all the angry, resentment, hurt, pain, all of it 44 years of it hit me like a brick wall. With no where to go legally.
In my eyes I see red, but Cuz I couldn't hurt a fly and the only way to balance things in my eyes I must see red.
How do u see me solving that issue God. Why have u forsaken me so badly. All these ppl that dont care about nobody but them god dam self ppl like myself are counting the days they can leave God plz tell me how u will make this right. GOD plz forgive me if my blood has to spill to forgive all those who have sinned and you make this pandemic go so pppl in my situation can go I'm ready god I'm ready. I will not take my own my life but I will allow god to use me as a sacrifice to make the suffering to end!!!!!
NOW I AM NOT SUICIDAL!!!!!! BUT IF GOD WOULD SEE IT FIT IM WILLING TO BE THAT SACRIFICE!!!! I dont get this selfishinness in this world we live in now I dont. I luv life but not if it's going to end up like that !!!!!!!!@