This thought use to worry me immensely but for other reasons like having to go to the chemist myself and how I will be able to control myself taking the right dosage.
I don't know if I will have to take medication for the rest of my life yet but I know I will be on them for some time to come, I think it's something people have to accept about their life, you could always try to come down to a lower dose and with therapy and other things into your lifestyle etc to improve it. .

Thank you for taking the time to answer my post

my pdoc and I use the rule of thumb 'do i need it? does it work? can I live with the side effects?' seems to work pretty well for me. if you were diabetic you would not question your need to take insulin. you need to do what is best to keep yourself healthy in whatever way is available to you meds, exercise, diet, music, meditation, reading etc. I hope you find the right balance for your personal needs. good luck with it. hugs.

It depends on if you actually need the medicine or not. Are they sure that you need all of them? Maybe you could switch doctors and get another opinion?

Are the meds helping? It's not a crime to use the help they give. Nor are you weak for doing so. It takes a lot of strength. I know they suck in a lot of ways, I have to remind myself of these things to make myself take what I need I take but as long as you and your doc are evaluating and adjusting effectiveness, and they are helping while not not being to horrible in the side effects department. Now the rest of your life is a bit much to worry about yet, while you maybe on meds, you'll find the landscape changes drastically. For example, several of my meds just quit working and it has been 3 months of almost shooting in the dark to find something that might possibly be helping. So take today not tomorrow. Meds are unfortunately something that needs a lot of adjustment for some people. And there maybe times where you feel better and can come off some of them but don't be afraid to take what you need either