awe hang in there you can make it! its tough to find a job but keep trying the right one will come along! congrats on being cut free for 5months! how did you do it!?

i've discovered that when you do something like SI, everything is a "celebration"... meaning that if you have the urge once to cut, and you don't. then that's one more batttle that's been won. you've gone 5 months now, that is an incredible achievement. just remember that you are never alone. there are a lot of people here who want to help you :)

i wont lie, iv been trying for more than a year to be cut free, but after 3 months i always had a slip. then, on this last attempt i decided to really really try hard not give in. And it was hard as hell, since i didnt have any kind of support network, friends or a councellor to help me when things got rough.
and when they did get rough i would often cry about it instead of internalising things, and i kept a diary as well. but probably the one thing that helped me through it the most was taking 5 seconds to just stop and ask myself why i feel so bad that i want to hurt myself again just before i decide to.
normally with self harm the psychological pain and termoil that we're going through is so strong that we can only think what we have to do to make it stop. butt if you just give yourself 5 seconds and ask why am i feeling like this? and explore what it is, you can deal with the answer. better yet journal it down!
This helped me understand where it was coming from, and it gave me something to constructively deal with. so i was making the ISSUE better that was causing all the agony. hope this helps!

well, you can know for sure that in the very least, you can always message me on here if you need some support. you aren't alone hun. you're never alone :)

that is so great that you have gone soo long hang in there!