Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.
SO...I've been having such good days compared to a few weeks ago, but now I feel like a TOTAL failure.
Tonight I was visiting my dad and hanging out with the waitresses in back of the restaurant, and one waitress asked me what was on my arm. I told her it was a burn, then she asked me how I got it. I didn't want to lie because I already lied enough so I told her that they were burns from salt and ice She then told my fav. waitress what I done and she was PISSED to say the least. I legitly thought she was gonna tell my dad, but she didn't (thank God).
She took me home and we talked about other stuff, then she asked my why I didn't like my life, and I told her that there are many people out there (like u guys) who deserve a better life and I feel like my life is a wasted one. I'd rather give my life up for someone else. So now I feel like she doesn't really trust me because I let her down. Trust me...If I could I wouldn't self harm, but there's this voice in my head that tells me to
Tonight I was visiting my dad and hanging out with the waitresses in back of the restaurant, and one waitress asked me what was on my arm. I told her it was a burn, then she asked me how I got it. I didn't want to lie because I already lied enough so I told her that they were burns from salt and ice She then told my fav. waitress what I done and she was PISSED to say the least. I legitly thought she was gonna tell my dad, but she didn't (thank God).
She took me home and we talked about other stuff, then she asked my why I didn't like my life, and I told her that there are many people out there (like u guys) who deserve a better life and I feel like my life is a wasted one. I'd rather give my life up for someone else. So now I feel like she doesn't really trust me because I let her down. Trust me...If I could I wouldn't self harm, but there's this voice in my head that tells me to
It's really hard, if not impossible, for people who don't self-harm to understand it. The only part of your post that I really don't understand is what you said about giving up your life for someone else. The thing is, which I'm sure you know, is that if you hurt yourself there is no one who benefits from that. It doesn't pass good energy to someone who is hurting, and it doesn't help anyone heal, it doesn't make anyone's life better. Yes, people who are suffering deserve better lives, but that includes you too. I know how difficult it is to stop harming yourself, but where can you turn to for help? Because it's really difficult to do on your own, and many people need help and outside support to implement other coping mechanisms that are effective.
((hugs))
And that's good you get to see a knew therapist thursday. Not all therapists are good. I hope this one is better!