Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.
All of my life I have struggled with suicide and self injury. Wanting to kill the agony hid in the secrets of my soul. Ive been told that there is a fine line between suicide and homicide. I cant ever remember feeling like hurting someone else. As a matter of fact, I do not think Ive ever hurt anyone intensionally. However, Im writing this today, because there is this dark feeling in me that just wants someone to hurt just as much as I have been hurt. Oh, I know that revenge is the Lords, but I can now see why some people really act out their aggression on others. Im not condoning bad behavior, nor do I feel at liberty to do so. However, Im just sitting on that fine line right now and wondered if anybody has been in my shoes?
Anyway, I know how you feel though. I don't think you want to actually kill people though. You just want to hurt them. Just from what you said anyway. Like about how you said you want to hurt them just as much as you have been hurt. It makes sense. There is a part in victims that is angry. You don't always have to be angry all the time, but anyone who is a victim always has that anger in them for what happened to them. It doesn't always over power you though.
I recently started feeling angry like that too. It went from like pure sadness to anger and I felt like I wanted to kill people. Then I though, no, I don't want to kill them, I just want to hurt them. And then I realized that I just wanted to hurt the bad people and not just people in general. And that's because I just think they should be punished for what they do to people. But, I think I understand how you are feeling.