I mime my suicide sometimes, put the empty gun to my head, pull the trigger, fall to the floor. I imagine driving mycar into a tree at high velocity.

ya, i imagain running my car off the road alot too, everytime i drive it.

I also think about driving into a bridge support or walking in front of a truck. For the past few years I have been struggling more and more with thoughts of being tortured. It is hard to stop those thoughts. They don't provide me with that much relief, but I think I do it just to put off dealing with life for a while.

ya i do that too, i think how easy it will be to just drive off the road or to run in frount of a car. it kind of scares me when i think about that and want to do it so much

I won't be alone in a car for that reason. I walk if I'm by myself if I can.

i like to drive by myself. i like to start to go off the road. the sound of the gravel like it's daring you to do it. idk i like that sound,i do it when i feel like driving off the road.

this might be crazy.but all day i have been thinking about a dream that i had last night that was sooooooooo twisted. the whole time i was running from "him". and there were a bunch of candles and the place cought on fire and there was a manicans arm and he took it and stabbed my chest with it.=(i woke up drippin sweat.it sucked.anyways.just signed on here and saw the headline stabbing...and i thot it was weird.

I think of killing myself all the time....see a knife well....then see myself stabbing me. I never have sharp knives in the house.....really can't remember when I started this. But, sure is hard on my family when they want to cut food!lol Well, wanted to say your not alone with these thoughts......you have to keep telling yourself it's the illness talking and it's not you. take care

yes i have and i'm 13. I can't stop. I don't wanna stop also. No one can make me.

I completely understand what you mean. The emotions behind my cutting have become stronger and now my first thoughts are about stabbing and then go . At times I have to make myself stop thinking about it. You are not alone!!!!

ya i know what all you mean. i sometimes scare myself with my thoughts and what i want to do and of some of my thought's about suicide. it's scary.

I just like to cut and see myself bleed, when it spurts though, I get tingles and just watch or do it again

ya i know what you mean i like to watch the blood flow out. when i cut my arm especially, but the rest of my body to tingles and it feels cool. feels like im alive

One time though, I really grossed myself out. I wanted to go deep, real deep. So I closed my eyes, put my left hand on my right (which held the razor) pushed down and cut really quick. I opened my eyes to see no blood, just layers...skin, fat, flesh. I dry heaved. the blood then started to flow, heaps and heaps of it. I felt kinda like you do after good sex, it was great. (I know I am a bit messed up in the head). Since I wouldnt go for stitches, I had to hold it together until it stopped bleeding enough to put elastoplast on it. Huge scar now

ya, i've never cut that deep before but i do have a few scars now from some that were pretty beep