Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.
I'm not one to talk about this situation but this might be the only group that will not freakout but understand. When ever i have memories of satanic sexual ritual abuse my physical pain is so real that inorder to contro it I do to myself what they did to me to stop the memories. I was stabed in my virgina with a knife at the same time being raped by the Incubis. He was the spiritual leader. I was 8. I'm sorry if this is triggering some of you but I need to get it out of me. I stab myself until I bleed vaginally. Crying, knowing that it's wrong but I do not know how else to gain control of the horrific painful memories.I can call my obgyn tomorrow and she can make sure everything is ok. If the bleeding stops then I don't need to go. I just can't afford to be baker acted again. I do not even want to tell my therapist because she will say I'm under too much stress and she would want me to cancel my trip to see my son come home from Iraq. Yes, I am stressed. I've acted out in an unhealthy way, but it stopped the tormenting memories when I intervined. I'm sorry to load this heavy on you guys just needed to get it out of me. Sorry!
instead of stabbing yourself what about punching a wall as hard as you can, i mean with your full body weight, yes i know you will probably break a bone or two, but what you are already doing is very dangerous and to me your level of self harm is serious in nature, so to me you are going to do something serious anyway. i guess what im suggesting i you swap one for the other..
i don't think i need to tell you to be careful, im sure your already taking care of yourself afterwards ( by going to your obgyn )
the reason i suggested the wall in particular, is because ive done that myself to the point of virtually passing out from the pain, so yeah i know for definite you will get satisfaction from that.
take care x mau x