Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.
today is really dragging, cuz i feel so rubbish. And i havent felt like this for over a year. But i feel like this now. It started when my mum asked me how much money i was going to give her this morning since i just started a new job.
Trouble is, it made me mad that she thinks i owe her something when shes the reason im here trying not to cut and trying not to think about it. Shes the reason i wanna jump off a cliff right now :-(
She cant accept the fact that im bisexual, but shes more than happy when her son says he has to go out to give a hooker some drugs, she dont say nothing! But i got a job, i got manners and im not a criminal yet she ruined my life just bcz im not like everyone else. Please tell me im not the only one who thinks thats drastically unfair? And rather sick on some levels.
Now those resentful feelings have come back, for her and for myself, and i just want to cut and cut until i find a tumor inside me labelled "GAY" and then i'll cut it out :-(
I dont know what else i can do. I hope someone has some ideas x
Trouble is, it made me mad that she thinks i owe her something when shes the reason im here trying not to cut and trying not to think about it. Shes the reason i wanna jump off a cliff right now :-(
She cant accept the fact that im bisexual, but shes more than happy when her son says he has to go out to give a hooker some drugs, she dont say nothing! But i got a job, i got manners and im not a criminal yet she ruined my life just bcz im not like everyone else. Please tell me im not the only one who thinks thats drastically unfair? And rather sick on some levels.
Now those resentful feelings have come back, for her and for myself, and i just want to cut and cut until i find a tumor inside me labelled "GAY" and then i'll cut it out :-(
I dont know what else i can do. I hope someone has some ideas x
Scared, confused, not knowing which way to turn like a rat in a maze full of dead ends. Even if i did drop dead, the odds of anyone noticing are close to none. The odds of them hating me for dating a girl are about 11 out of 10...
I hate this life, i feel cursed. What terrible crime could i have committed to deserve a lifetime of untimely torture? If im dead no one will see me, and they can get on will paying their bills and feeding their fish and forget all about the daft embaressment that used to be me.
And no one write on here they wont forget you, they'll be scarred forever and ever.... because
I thought my mum cared but it turrns out shes just as bad as the rest of them. she hates me too deep down... told me as much when i came out to her :'-(
For what it's worth, I agree with what you say about your mum demanding money from you and not understanding who you are.
Parents should be giving unconditional love, no matter whether you're fat or thin or clever or not.
It seems like your mum might be making exceptions for your brother. Favouritism is never nice.
Please stay strong and keep the faith!