Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.
I haven't cut but one time in about 4 years... I'm almost 20 years old now. The last time I cut was right after my third miscarriage this past April. I was suicidal, depressed, hurting more than I've ever hurt... But I lived through it and I'm still here.
I started cutting when I was 12, after I was sexually assaulted by a relative who also sexually abused me growing up. I also saw my biological father for the first time in years right after this assault, and then had a big family conflict and now I'll never see my dad again... I got sent back home to live with my abusive crackhead/alcoholic stepdad, and my pillhead mom. I hated living there. I was so tired of the life my mom gave us- I've always felt that she was the cause behind what my stepdad has done to my siblings and I and my sexual abuse. My mom was the one who sent me off with my great uncle when he raped me, and I'm 90% sure she knew about the things he did to me when I was little.....
Years ago I made the effort to stop hurting myself. I also stopped taking pills and smoking weed because I made the decision not to end up like my parents... I have tried so hard to better myself and my life... But it just seems like one thing after another is bringing me down.....
Tonight, my 16 year old sister called me to tell me that my stepdad threatend to crush her face against the side of her boyfriend's truck. She ran away with her boyfriend and his mom is taking care of her... And my fiance is not supporting me one bit. He was there for my three miscarriages (first one July 2010) and he was the one who got me through dealing with the hardest parts of my sexual abuse... Why can't he be more supportive of this tonight? My sister isn't here, and he said if the police show up wanting to look for her here he won't let them in. I would rather go along with that and them bring here safely here if she's found than piss them off and them take here back to my parent's house...
I just don't know what to do... And suicidal thoughts are popping back in my head, along with that urge to cut one more time... I know I shouldn't do it, and I know it won't help anything, but I can't help wanting this so bad right now.......
I started cutting when I was 12, after I was sexually assaulted by a relative who also sexually abused me growing up. I also saw my biological father for the first time in years right after this assault, and then had a big family conflict and now I'll never see my dad again... I got sent back home to live with my abusive crackhead/alcoholic stepdad, and my pillhead mom. I hated living there. I was so tired of the life my mom gave us- I've always felt that she was the cause behind what my stepdad has done to my siblings and I and my sexual abuse. My mom was the one who sent me off with my great uncle when he raped me, and I'm 90% sure she knew about the things he did to me when I was little.....
Years ago I made the effort to stop hurting myself. I also stopped taking pills and smoking weed because I made the decision not to end up like my parents... I have tried so hard to better myself and my life... But it just seems like one thing after another is bringing me down.....
Tonight, my 16 year old sister called me to tell me that my stepdad threatend to crush her face against the side of her boyfriend's truck. She ran away with her boyfriend and his mom is taking care of her... And my fiance is not supporting me one bit. He was there for my three miscarriages (first one July 2010) and he was the one who got me through dealing with the hardest parts of my sexual abuse... Why can't he be more supportive of this tonight? My sister isn't here, and he said if the police show up wanting to look for her here he won't let them in. I would rather go along with that and them bring here safely here if she's found than piss them off and them take here back to my parent's house...
I just don't know what to do... And suicidal thoughts are popping back in my head, along with that urge to cut one more time... I know I shouldn't do it, and I know it won't help anything, but I can't help wanting this so bad right now.......
It sounds like your sister may be safer where she is right now, Perhaps her boyfriends mom is giving her the comfort and security she needs, and is proabably craving, right now.
That is just rediculous to me, that your husband is not supporting you. This is a time when you need a big hug every couple hours from someone you know loves you. You deserve to have a support system. Do you have any close friends or other family you could talk to about this?... I'm here to listen is you need to get some stuff off your mind and want some support.
Best of luck!