Today I got a nasty shock, I was walking along a busy street in the middle of the day to the supermarket when someone started pulling me away because a man had picked up an ashtray off the corner of a cafe table and was walking towards me with it raised.
He threw it really hard and it hit my feet, covering me in little cuts. I don't know why he did it, he started apologising wierdly, and I ran away. I have no idea who he was.
I know its not a big deal, but the shock of it all caused me to dissasociate, and THATS whats screwed me up. I didn't speak for the rest of the day and I keep jumping. I keep thinking about bad things in my past, not anything in particular, just everything at once. Its come at a bad time, because at the moment I'm weaning myself off of paroxetine, which causes some very bad side effects, so I'm already in an emotionally wierd place.
Does anyone have any advice for me on how to get through this? I can't cry or talk to anyone, I'm just numb and frightened to go outside.