I know what you mean. I can be on top of the world, it doesn't matter how good I'm feeling, and then I'm randomly by a window or at the top of the stairs, and I suddenly picture throwing myself over the edge. It's almost like I want to kill myself but I know I could never really make myself die. At least not on purpose.

It's just what you called it, impulsive. And random, and pretty much reasonless. And even though it's all of those things, it also happens pretty often. Maybe I just want to see how far I can really go? Maybe I want to freak people out so I can get help? Eh, I really don't know why it happens. But it does.

this happens to me when i stop cutting for a long time....i would definitly talk to someone about these thoughts....if you have a therapis they wouldb e great to talk to....these thoughts may be harmless or you may not be able to actually DO them, but they ARE scary and serious....good luck and if you need ot talk i'm here!!!!

I think about this stuff pretty much all the time, it gets worse the more I'm around people and the more I'm being forced to pretend I'm okay, also after not cutting for a long time, they become much worse. I haven't talked to a doctor, though I do suggest it. I have told my doctor I was depressed because I was hoping to find help, but they couldn't unless I involved my parentals and that is a big no. I was scared to tell them I was suicidal so I denied that, because I too know I'll never do it, but in 6 months when I turn 18, I'm definitely talking to someone because after almost 6 years of struggling with this, I want help.

These impulsive thoughts can be the sign of a personality or mood disorder(not to scare you are anything) I think you should talk to a therapist about this. Even though you say you don't have the "balls" to do this now, it might not be long before you actually do try this. I think you should tell a therapist

i get the same thoughts..almost exactly the same. but not when i'm happy or anything. just when i'm depressed or pissed. but yeah, please see a doctor n they will evaluate and get you on meds hopefully. hope everything works out well for you!!

You are not alone. When I started to drive it was the worst for me because I was alone and where I live if I go off a cliff, no one would know for a week or so if they can find the car. I have looked over this ledge and wanted to drive strait off it every time I go past it. I have these thoughts and feelings too. I have not been to the doctor for this because I do not want to be in a hospital.

I think thats what im scared off, i did go to the doctors some time last year and told them that i was getting quite depressed, they made a referral but i never followed through with it.
I'm such a paranoid and almost over-the-top person that i think im scared of going to the doctors and having someone confirm that somethings not right and that in actuality somethings soo wrong that ill end up in a loony bin.
I'd quite like it to be confirmed though, just because ive known something is wrong for years but everyones always put it down to my time of the month and i know thats not it.

If any of this makes any sense =/

i understand that you feel scared.....that's perfectly normal to feel that way......teh thing is, these are very serious thoughts, even if you don;t think you'll ever follow through with them.....seeing a doctor would be good.....if you ARE clinically depressed then they can help with meds. and ususally meds. DO help........if a doctor gives you a referral i would take it.....and as far as being put in the "looney bin" there is no such thing as one.....yes there are behavioral health hospitals and they help-trust me, been in there 5 times-and if a doctor or someone requests admission to the hospital it's because they care about you and want you to be safe.....to be quite honest if i was assessing you i would probably put you in the hospital....this isn't meant to scare you or anything i just think that you should still go to doctor and see what they reccomend

Yes, others feel this way. At least I know that I do anyway. I have often thought about jumping of the bridge here in my town. I don't ever think I will do this tho. I have to much to live for, but I understand the thoughts you have. Most of the time when I have then I don't even know why I feel this way. Go and talk to your doctor. Maybe its not even you but just a chemical imbalance in body that's making you feel this way. But your not alone in this feeling. Best of luck to you!!

The weirdest thing for me is it happens most when i'm feeling perfectly fine, when i thought of stepping out into fast traffic i had just done some serious retail therapy and if anything was on a high, i felt great and then all of a sudden i thought about killing myself. I'm going to call the doctors tomorrow and make an appointment. We've got so much crap going on at home at the moment though, i dont want this to interfere at all.

I'm so confused as to why i'm thinking these things, i mean aside from the problems we have at home at the moment which dont even really concern me its not really my personal problem, everythings looking up, ive passed my driving test, i have a car, im starting college soon, i have a job, all my relationships are good. It makes no sense for me to want to die?

That's how it is with me! I don't get WHY I have the thoughts. I'm never suicidal when I'm upset or hurting myself, but when I'm having a great time I just feel like I could jump off a building.