Well im now just Damaged... cause my mum commented on my scars on my arms today said they didnt look like animals scratches (i worked at a farm with rabbits and alot of other animals and thats what i said it was, i also own alot of animals.. excuses were easy, now i quit... not so much) she told me it looked like i did it and i tried to deny it like i have a few times before and I've always cut inconspicously so she wouldnt notice, til the last time i cut my wrist i went over the top and it was obvious... now she knows attacked me over it in the middle of the supermarket and i told her not now and shes like i knew before you were bullshitting me when you said no... its just anothing thing ive failed at.
at this point my blood boiled. HOW DARE she take MY problems and make them her fault. how dare she belittle me and make me guilty that i cut myself.
Right now im angry at her and myself. Im upset and awfully alone and i dont even feel like cutting, just rolling into a ball and dying.
i hate myself for being like this
wish id never become friends with a blade
xxx