Self-Injury Support Group
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So I was fine for a few weeks, smoking cigarettes an pot - perfectly content. I still would be if my dad hadn't figured about the cigarettes. He said there is no hope for me and that he wants to kick me out. I'm 16, by the way. So, I had gotten drunk a couple days before and knowing this, I decided: fuck it! I lacerated cuts on my legs, cutting over scars dozens of times. Then I took 100mg of Valium. I wanted to die for being such a disappointment. I hate being a disappointment. I'm extremely addicted and aware of this but unwilling to change. Yet I don't want to be this way, though... There is a sick pleasure inside of me that enjoys the pain, a demon many of us share. I'm ready to cut again and trying to find a good reason not to. Any advice would be appreciated.
mjones0608
I am also ready to cut again. I just thought you should know that you're not alone. I always feel like a disapointment as well.
xTris
It's a cruel world, and it's difficult to find that satisfying taste of approval.
deleted_user
I am sorry you are struggling so deeply but, and I know you don't want to hear this, but it may be time for a hospital visit. You are stepping past self harm into suicide. With that being said, you are not a disappiontment. You are making unhealthy choices but that isn't all of.you. we all struggle and sucks for us that our struggles are easily seen and come with such a lovely stigma. Don't beat yourself up for what you already did. Nothing good will come from it. Try to figure out something else for next time, bc there will be a next time.best of luck, hon.
xTris
I've already been to the hospital; I was there a few months ago, actually. I have been considering going back but I don't feel like I'm to the point where I need to go. I do stupid things when I get depressed but don't we all?
LoveAlice
Your dad probably said that there is no hope for you because there is no hope for himself. Maybe he knows that he's the disappointment, but he's just going to try to keep blaming it all on you as much as possible. For whatever reason it's easier for parents to treat their kids like shit than just being a good fucking person for once.
kandeekandy733
I'm sorry you feel this way, I am thinking of you and pray things get better for you, sending you lots of hugs
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