Self-Injury Support Group

Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.

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converseoleander 04/22/2015

I stopped using DS for nearly 3 years, I got put on Lexapro, moved out of the abusive environment I lived in, and made a life for myself away from depression. Most recently however my past has come back to haunt me, memories of things I had blocked out or thought I had forgotten.

I'm taking it out with my therapist, my case worker, and my partner but miss than anything I'm starting to regress, and that scares me. My manic panic attacks are back, the feeling triggered, the need to do something bad. My sleep has gotten weird too, like it used to be. I hate this, and I'm scared.

littlelucyx3 04/22/2015

That is so awful; I'm so sorry. Do you think you could have PTSD? That happened to me. Has your therapist suggested that you might have it?

converseoleander 04/22/2015

Not yet but I literally JUST told my therapist about it last night and it was so difficult to talk about that we didn't get too far or really into the graphic details. Mostly we spoke about how the issue is affecting my relationship with my partner.

tryingtobestrong5 04/22/2015

I think you should talk to your therapist about what's been happening with you, then talk about what would be best for you and your partner.

littlelucyx3 04/22/2015

Oh okay. Next time you see your therapist I'm sure you guys will get to talk more about it.

How are you dealing with all of this in the meantime?

converseoleander 04/23/2015

In the mean time I'm coping by trying to find coping skills that will help keep me from going back to my old ways - hurting myself, binge drinking, drugs, etc. My therapist told me to come up with a minimum of five things to do while I'm "emotionally disregulated" that will help me cope with the feelings, thoughts, and disturbing memories and realizations.

A huge thing that I'm doing is getting involved with DS, this is the first time I've been on DS since about 2011-2012 writing in the journal helps significantly. AS well as writing in forums and talking to others who may understand what I'm going through.

littlelucyx3 04/23/2015

That is great!

I'm actually drinking right now to help me; that is probably not a good idea but what the hell.

converseoleander 04/23/2015

If you know it's an unhealthy habit/coping method, then do you think you could do something else instead or maybe stop before it's too much?

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