It doesn't make you stupid.
I understand, because I'm like that (the only difference is that I actually am stupid..)
Its just a part of who I am, and I admittedly kinda like how they look.
After all, I have spent hours slaving over them.
At the same time, I just want to be able to go swimming with friends and not worry about it.
Its all very confusing, and I know that it may seem wrong.
But remember that you are not stupid or selfish.
Just confused.
I don't know your background or your religion, but remember that God will love you no matter what is going on in your life, and that he understands as well.

I feel exactly the same. I have only one scar that is permanent. Actually, that's a lie. It is about 26 scars that I cut end-to-end to look like one so that people wouldn't ask questions if I needed medical treatment. But I have the odd feeling that I want them to be permanent. All my other cuts have healed away. Still, I know to others who know it is a cutting scar, this is freakish. I am ambivalent. Selfish? Maybe.

I asked something similar, about panicking as the scars started to heal. It, seems alot of people feel the same.
I like to see them. I don't like watching them disappear. Its strange, ya?!
Of course I hate them too, having to hide them or come up with believable excuses, ain't easy.

i am the same. i like my scars, i don't want them to go, yet sometimes i want to make them just disappear. I believe this is just my shame in the behavior that makes me want them to be gone. but don't worry you are for sure not a lone.

i feel the same i love my scars
but i hate them at the same time
they are part of me now thats why i like them,
i dont because they sometimes remind me of bad times
so..
no i dnt belive you are selfish nor do i belive its self pity
and i defanatly think it makes sence

I like having scars. I'm not cutting at the moment and they are the only thing that remind me of how bad I felt, and sort of make me approciate how good I'm feeling right now. But at the same time they are such an inconvinience, I can't wet short sleaves and I hate showing my arms, they are pretty bad scars too, and I know they probably won't ever go. So I need them but I don't want them.

I have felt that way plenty of times. There are days where I'm like look at what kinda scare that made and their are other day where Im worry that someone will see them and report them to either my family or someone else. On those days after I cut I look at my self in the mirror and ask my self why? Half the time I want them cuz I feel like they will help me stop but other days I look and wonder to myself what if I want to have a baby and a doctor sees them what will happen? So, I wouldn't say its weird but kinda normal in our kinda situation.

i've always liked scars. i would be fine with the scars if it weren't for people calling me "emo" when they see them.

I feel the same way about my scars. I feel I have earned them, yet it is embarassing when people notice them during the summer months. I thoroughly enjoy cutting and bleeding and the scars, so I guess I am wierd too. Cate

The scars on my legs, I don't mind - not proud of, but I think that is only because no one sees them. When I look at them I sort of get lost and have to snap back to reality because I find myself going back to the time it happend, and how I felt when I did those cuts - relieved, calm, etc. As for the scars on my arm... I think I would almost feel naked without them... but I hate them. Everytime I am at work either in a t-shirt or with my sleeves pulled up, I often catch people looking at them. They never say anything, and neither do I, but it almost makes me feel ashamed in a sense - only because I am certain that they do not understand it... and I could only imagine what they are thinking - which of course shouldn't bother me because more importantly I'm the one who understands it. I've already tattooed over most of the ones on my forearm, and because I hate the ones so much on the outside of my arm, I will be tattooing over those as well... The ones on my leg, I dont think I will tattoo over, but incorporate into a tattoo instead.

I guess I like having my scars because each of them reminds me of all the sh!t I've been through and whatever else may come my way is nothing new.

I can understand, I used to like my scars and get freaked out when they started to disappear. It was like I wouldn't know who I was without them. But now I've gotten to the point where I really want them to be gone, and I put vitamin E oil on them and stuff, but they aren't going away! Ugh!

I understand what you mean. My scars tell a story, and I don't want to forget what happened/what I did to myself.
But at the same time, I'm afraid someone will see them and ask questions, and I have scars that are clearly intentional, therefor not easily explained away.
But I think some of my scars are actually kind of cool looking, in a slightly morbid way.

No its not stupid at all..i have few different ways i look at them..on one hand i think wow i remember how hurt i was then and pulled through it.But then also when they heal i kinda start to freak out and get the urge to re open them.Scars tell a story heartache but also of strength.