Just take a deep breath and relax. Even if you feel like you want to hurt yourself, the urge will go away. I am sending you lots of hugs. I am here if you want to talk to someone. Lots of love.

Impulse control is probably the hardest thing for humans to overcome. It is overwhelming, that's for sure. But it can be done, it just takes an immense amount of dedication. Did something specific happen to make you feel that you want to hurt yourself? If it wasn't a specific event, what exactly is making you feel the urge at the moment?

Id likje to talk but I dont know about what or how to, I mean i dont know what I would say but I can't get my mind off of it!

Nothing specific happened it just pops into my mind and I dont know how to stop it and a large part of me doesnt want to stop it but I know I shouldnt do it but I want to even though its bad...

Yeah I know what you mean about not wanting to stop it. Been there, and I also have a recovering addict friend who would probably say the same thing. Like I said, impulse control is possible but you have to really be dedicated to controlling the urge/ impulse. Maybe you should scream to release some of that. There definitely is a negative thought process going on there, even if it's not due to a specific event. That is, if everything in your life was 'butterflies and rainbows' you wouldn't want to hurt yourself. You may need to challenge the negative thoughts, which, when people are depressed, tend to regard those negative thoughts as "facts"... which of course, they are not. Watching something funny helps me also, it feels really good to laugh when things seem fucked up.

I don't really think I could laugh right now...Is there anything I can do if I DONT have to dedication to stop at the moment...waiting for a reply I had already started...

Either you really just gotta muster up the drive to make yourself stop... after all you are making a choice to do it, it's not as if the thing is harming you all by itself... or just try not to do it that deeply. Be quick about it and then walk away. Scream if you have to. Punch a pillow. Run somewhere, anywhere just to get away from it.

Yeah Ill try those...thanks

I hope it helps! Just try to make a cut/ cuts that aren't very deep, just enough to satisfy the urge. Then get away from it as quickly as you can. My heart goes out to you!

The only problem is I cant seem to get enough but thanks again ^_^

Just know that the intense emotion you're feeling right now will pass. Everything does, sooner or later... hopefully sooner. Time has a way of helping you to gain perspective on things. Right now I know it may seem never-ending but it's not. Try to keep that in mind. I wish you the best!