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Been really depressed for months whilst in treatment for several things. But since Saturday I have had this 'heightened' mood.
Does anyone think it's a problem that I still feel suicidal? I mean...suicidal as in, if someone was to say OK you can go and do it. I wouldn't hesitate at all. I WANT to do it. The ONLY reason I won't is because it will hurt my family. My therapist doesn't know I still feel like this. Should I tell him?
Plus, because I know at the moment I can't kill myself. The self harm urges are there constantly and I'm not worried or scared about those either. Again I want to do it. The only reason I haven't is because I don't understand my reasoning behind it.
Since I've been in this 'heightened mood' since Saturday, I think about these thoughts and I'm just not bothered. It doesn't scare me at all.
Is this a good thing or not?
x-Bliss-x
Does anyone think it's a problem that I still feel suicidal? I mean...suicidal as in, if someone was to say OK you can go and do it. I wouldn't hesitate at all. I WANT to do it. The ONLY reason I won't is because it will hurt my family. My therapist doesn't know I still feel like this. Should I tell him?
Plus, because I know at the moment I can't kill myself. The self harm urges are there constantly and I'm not worried or scared about those either. Again I want to do it. The only reason I haven't is because I don't understand my reasoning behind it.
Since I've been in this 'heightened mood' since Saturday, I think about these thoughts and I'm just not bothered. It doesn't scare me at all.
Is this a good thing or not?
x-Bliss-x
Whether he got it or not I don't know. He didn't respond to it at all. There wasn't a conversation about it or anything.
I left the session feeling completely...I don't even know how to describe it.
All the way home I held everything in. As soon as I walked through the door I just burst into tears.
So I'm not scared of suicide or self harm anymore? Then why this reaction? I still feel like I couldn't give a damn. I WANT to die...especially now! So why did him not reacting to what I told him upset me so much.
Oh I forgot. It's because I'M FUCKED IN THE HEAD!!!
Thanks. I know it's a risky place to be but I'm not sure what else I can do. I don't want to call a crisis line. It just seems a bit too over the top...I don't know.
x-Bliss-x