Don't start down this road, if you haven't started cutting or done any destructive behavior before don't start now. It's such a lonely painful road to go down and you leave a trail of bodies of everyone you loved behind you that is effected by this.

I would suggest going to a counselor, for me sadly it hasn't helped it used too but I've been doing this for so long that it doesn't anymore, but it might help for you so you can find out what your triggers are if you have any.

Good luck and I hope you find some relief and I hope you can start feeling again. It sucks not being able to feel.

Don't start cutting or hurtting yourself. It is so hard to stop! Please. Find something you can take you hurt and anger out on... a sport? Working out at the gym? Music? Art?

I agree with the above comment, art can really relieve you and takes your mind off your troubles for the moment you want to harm anyway.

I want to thank each of you for taking the time to show your compassion and concern.

I just want to let you know I am trying to take your advice.

Thank you very much.:-/

please consider taking the advise given...i'm quite sure you dont want to end up like me, a 39yr old woman with scars all over my body ,not caring about who i hurt with my cutting and burning...it's a twisted addiction i wish i never started when i was 8yrs old...imagine how my skin look looks with all these years of abuse..its very addicting and WON'T solve your problems ,you will just get looked down upon, you'll hurt the ones ,family and friends around you...please dont start because you will have to hide and make excuses to why you have those scars on your body so much you may end up like me, not giving a damn...please please please dont start...

i know how you feel, but you need to fight it before you start cutting. you need to pick up the pieces now cuz it only gets harder after you start cutting. yeah okay, cutting feels good for awhile. but then ppl see your scars and they ask questions and your stuck. you need too see what can help you. anything

I am listening very carefully to you all. Thank you very, very much for trying to help me. I want you to know your urging me to weigh carefully what I do next is not falling on deaf ears.

Still I admit that scenarios of hurting myself in one way or another seems to be in an almost continuous play mode in the back of my mind theses days.

I even know what triggered it. How strange I think it is to know the trigger and still not have some sort of "power" over not allowing it to effect me like this.

Anyways, all of your comments and show of concern has helped me to keep from....doing anything so far. So I truly thank you all with my whole heart.

Sincerely,

rsimmons

Please don't hurt yourself. I know how you feel. Been down that road too. Try to fight those urges. I have tried methods like watching tv, reading a book, exercising, and listening to music. All of us on here care about you and want to help you. You can message me anytime if you want to talk.

So glad you are staying strong, keep it up. We are here for you