Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.
Hello,
So.. I have been struggling with wanting to hurt myself. I don't do it often. It's so rare. It's like I have to be "in the zone" to do it. A complete trance of negativity, but when I'm responsive and functioning I'm actually scared of my blades. I don't want to touch them or look at them. When something upsets me I just go into this trance and if I don't break it quickly I end up hurting myself. I do it over the most silly things too! All it takes is one rude comment and I'm "in the zone."
Does anyone else get like that?
Well, tonight I got really upset. I am friends with my ex boyfriend. Best friends, to be honest. His house is a safe place for me, but his mom now doesn't want me coming over because we're broken up and apparently I eat all the food. Before she was so good to me and now she doesn't want me hanging around.... it hurt me so badly. I feel like I can't get to my safe place anymore. Then he began talking about meeting another guy instead of me...... I know we are broken up but it is so sudden. It hurt for some reason. I don't know why. It was just back to back hurt.
This all sounds really silly but it hurt me. Mostly not being allowed over. I want him to be happy and if that means someone else? Go for it! But I want to still be special to him and his mom. I feel like I'm not anymore. I feel replaceable and shunned.
So.. I have been struggling with wanting to hurt myself. I don't do it often. It's so rare. It's like I have to be "in the zone" to do it. A complete trance of negativity, but when I'm responsive and functioning I'm actually scared of my blades. I don't want to touch them or look at them. When something upsets me I just go into this trance and if I don't break it quickly I end up hurting myself. I do it over the most silly things too! All it takes is one rude comment and I'm "in the zone."
Does anyone else get like that?
Well, tonight I got really upset. I am friends with my ex boyfriend. Best friends, to be honest. His house is a safe place for me, but his mom now doesn't want me coming over because we're broken up and apparently I eat all the food. Before she was so good to me and now she doesn't want me hanging around.... it hurt me so badly. I feel like I can't get to my safe place anymore. Then he began talking about meeting another guy instead of me...... I know we are broken up but it is so sudden. It hurt for some reason. I don't know why. It was just back to back hurt.
This all sounds really silly but it hurt me. Mostly not being allowed over. I want him to be happy and if that means someone else? Go for it! But I want to still be special to him and his mom. I feel like I'm not anymore. I feel replaceable and shunned.
benben54123
hey i cut during the craziest things too sometimes. some of them are even bad things. sometimes their good things and i cut. I've actually figured out that i just like the feeling of pain. try this. everytime you feel like cutting. put your hands in freezing cold water until you don't feel like cutting anymore. this usually helps me. i hope it helps you.
krzysoxnpokadots
Whenever I cut, I guess I'm sort of in a zone as well. I never really thought if it like that before but it's how it is. If I could just push pass the zone, I knew I would wake up the next morning and not want to cut anymore. So, I know what you mean. I also have cut over seemingly silly things. Like, I distinctly remember cuttinng myself one time because I got called on in class and didn't know the answer. It seems so stupid...but we all have our triggers no matter how big or small. I'm really sorry you don't feel special to your ex anymore. Maybe if you remind him that his place is a safe place for you, you'll still be able to go there. Hopefully things get better!
LoveAlice
That's really stupid that his mom doesn't want you over. I doubt you eat all the food lol. I'm sorry you can't go to your safe place anymore. That is so stupid. Maybe you both can find a new safe place? It sounds like he doesn't want to shun you, just for whatever reason his mom is being a bitch.
armatageshanks
PokemonKid, I'm sorry things had to be this way. Really I am. I honestly don't want to date anyone. I don't ever want you to feel upset. If I could have my way, I'd never leave your side, and you'd be over here all the time. But it's not up to me.
PokemonKid
Thank you everyone for the feedback. I really appreciate it. Knowing people have cut over "little" things made me feel better. They really aren't little things because they mean so much to us.
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