I am so mad at myself. I have tried to stop cutting for a year now, and for the most part it has been successful. Every once in a while I make a mistake though, and this time it was bad. I wanted to cut yesterday, but I tried to resist the urge. Today I guess it just kept building up, and before I knew it I was cutting. I am really upset about making the mistake, and that just makes me want to cut more. But when I try to just acknowledge it as a mistake and move on, I feel like I don't deserve it and want to cut more anyway. So between all that I cut my stomach to shreds and I am not feeling any better than I was before. I only feel more ashamed. I honestly don't know what to do anymore or if I will ever get better.
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