Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.
I am so mad at myself. I have tried to stop cutting for a year now, and for the most part it has been successful. Every once in a while I make a mistake though, and this time it was bad. I wanted to cut yesterday, but I tried to resist the urge. Today I guess it just kept building up, and before I knew it I was cutting. I am really upset about making the mistake, and that just makes me want to cut more. But when I try to just acknowledge it as a mistake and move on, I feel like I don't deserve it and want to cut more anyway. So between all that I cut my stomach to shreds and I am not feeling any better than I was before. I only feel more ashamed. I honestly don't know what to do anymore or if I will ever get better.
Try to realize that slip-ups are a normal part of overcoming this addiction, and you did absolutely nothing wrong, and you are getting better. The fact that this upsets you so, shows that you're getting better.
If you ever need to talk, I'm here.
Just write it off and think, oh well I was really suffering and cut because I needed relief and I haven't found the best (and healthiest) way for me to cope with these feelings yet. I had to do it but will not let it make me feel bad. I will keep trying new ways to cope and I will not be ruled by something that makes my life harder than it already is!!
I have slipped up a lot of times. But this past while I have been managing longer and longer between relapses and I think the reason why is that I have been managing better to not beat myself up so bad when I do slip up.
Hope this helps. Hugs to you
Nobody's Hippe is right - if you were not getting upset about it then that would mean that you are not overcoming it but since you are getting upset means something.