hey u dont have 2 say sorry :) n running into the door come on what did the door do 2 u lol jk hun just remember ur not alone n u never will be n just 4get ur past ur past is ur past... every1 makes mistakes thats what life is all about n it aint about making the mistakes its how u come bk room them what matters huggies n monkeys :)

it;s not all about the past. its how i feel most days and most of the guilts are from day to day stuff. Feel rather down everyday just hate getting up and just wish i could just stay there and sleep and never wake up. this world dont need me on the planet. I got one bestes mate who i can trust with everything but i sadly cant just tell her everything:(. feel like if i tell ppl everything then they will disown me just like family.

if she is a a true n good m8 like u say she wont disown u or judge u she will help u in everyway cause thats what m8s r 4 well true m8s anyway :) hun u should look at all the lil bad things what happen n find the funny side of them i know it dont help that much but u wont feel so bad its like when i hit something or cut i dont think of it being bad i think of how better i feel so i turn it into a good thing or if i fall down the stairs i dont get pissed off i just laugh n think about how bad my luck is... anyway here 4 u hun n u can tell me anything apart from telling me santa aint real cause he is :)

I see you're in the UK. Ring the Samaritans - 08457 909090 and get things off your chest. You'll be much better talking to someone as you'll get instant responses.

I can only text them i can never talk on the phone about it to them. last time i done that i was on the phone for an hour just crying and trying to talk:(.

That's not to say we can't help you here as well, of course.

hey hun if i had a phone would give u my number so u could call me at any time u needed talk :) but havnt got 1 lol lost the last 1 age ago gotta get house phone my buy 1 2moz lol just remember hun u will never be alone there is always some who understands n will talk 2 u :) huggies n monkeys :)

Thanks. im also pretty upset as i always use to talk to this guy called wolf he was ace we talked none stop most nights as i had free mins on my phone. Now his suddenly dissapeared last time i heard from him was in feb i wrote him a letter hoping he will get it. just hope he didint get too depressed and take his own life im soo scared he has:(. Love him to peices all i can do is sit and wait for him to responde:(. Loved the guy soo much he was a goth i remmeber for xmas i brought him this teashirt from oasis he loved it so much he was saying he wore it for two weeks straight. Cries i miss him soo much.

hey hun he is out there u will talk again 1day :) just think off all the good things about him n the laughs u had with him n time will fly by n then u will be talking 2 him again hun huggies n monkeys

I want to support you through this. Try not to beat yourself up over what's in the past or the choices you've made.

awww hidden he will call again i think if yall share such a closeness, he will :)
love alwasy reaches out to love...dont wory so much have faith in what yall have shared okay. huggies and kitties

Thanks soo much peeps. been kinda to know u lot are helping me.:) like to thank u all. things just bit tough.

you are welcome
huggies to you

I love you hun (btw i'm her friend :)) You got no reason to feel guilty at all *hug* I'd never disown you or anything like that. *huggles*