Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.
Why is it when you want things to be OK in your life, they never will be? I feel like I'm at the end of a rope and am losing my grip. I feel i have literally no-one apart from my boyfriend left who truely understands me or even wants me around, and also my 12 year old son. I'm finding it so had at the moment for motivation and for not harming myself again. I've slipped up a few times but its so hard now. I love my family so much but feel they don't care about me. I'm always there if one of my nine brothers and sisters needs me but no one is there for me. I don't spread their problems about if they tell me any but if I have problems, it gets spread about and not just to family. One of my sisters boyfriends even got social services onto me because of my self harm a few years ago but it was deemed that everything was OK because I was at no risk to anyone else and that I had sought help myself anyway, but my sister still stands by him. I can't talk to anyone but my boyfriend but he has depression too like me, so its sometimes hard to convey feelings of worry about us to him, though he knows all about my past and he knows when I am not right. Even if he is feeling down, if he sees me down, he tries to cheer me up. I love him to bits but its hard because we live 30miles apart, so its not like we can see each other every day, though I am hoping to move nearer to him with my son soon.
All in all, things are stressing me so much lately that it is hard to concentrate on anything but bad thoughts and to meet rid of them all I want to do is have a bit of release which SH gives me. I am so scared of it though as I don't want it to come between my boyfriend and I. He says it doesn't bother him and he will still be there but for how long if I can't control it? SH is a big g release for me but I'm fighting hard not to do it
All in all, things are stressing me so much lately that it is hard to concentrate on anything but bad thoughts and to meet rid of them all I want to do is have a bit of release which SH gives me. I am so scared of it though as I don't want it to come between my boyfriend and I. He says it doesn't bother him and he will still be there but for how long if I can't control it? SH is a big g release for me but I'm fighting hard not to do it
LoveAlice
I am glad that you are fighting hard not to do it. I am sorry that your family is not supportive of you. And that is really screwed up that they spread stuff around. I am sorry they had freaking social services after you. They don't even care what a kid is being beaten or raped, but they all of the sudden care if a mom self harms? That's bullshit. I guess it would be safest for you not to talk to them. They don't deserve you anyway if they are just going to talk about you like that.
PaganSpirit
I know the urges get very strong but you are fighting it so thats great. Over the past few days my urges have been extremely hard to fight back so I understand how hard that fight is. I know what you mean when you say that SI will provide that release you desire but we have to try not to give in. I can't talk to my family about SI because they just don't understand and unless you do it you never will. It sucks that your family doesn't support you, it just adds to the stress your under. You have your boyfriend and your son and you to focus on. They support you and won't judge you, thats great. You also have us here for support. Post what you will, talk to us and maybe we can help each other.
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