Thanks for sharing. I am sorry you feel like people are tolerating you. It is not true but our brain and perspective can affect how we see things. Especially if we struggle with anxiety or depression. Do you have a counselor to share these concerns with? Is there one at the school? I struggle with my thoughts at times and see things that are not really the situation. Maybe you can share your concern with you girlfriend. Many times we have difficulty liking ourselves and have low self-esteem. Well that can affect how others see us too. If we don't love ourselves how can we expect others to love us. Here is an exercise I did that has helped me learn to love myself and appreciate who I am. God designed us each unique, we each have value and a purpose and need to remember that.

Keeping a gratitude journal is helping in finding the things you like and appreciate about yourself. When you see these things others will too. It is writing down something good every morning and night something that went well in the day, or something I appreciate about myself. Taking our focus off of the negative thoughts and focusing on positive uplifting things really helps. What you think is what you believe. So thinking uplifting things you believe those things but the reverse is true - thinking negative self-defeating things, you will believe those.

I will be praying for you. Feel free to pm me if you'd like to chat. Hugs and God Bless

How are you feeling? I have been praying for you. Hugs