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Bulimic/anorexic/self injurer right here. In my opinion, neither is worse than the other. The bulimia is tearing apart your insides, causing damage to your kidneys, stomach, throat, and digestive system. Your teeth are declining at a rapid pace - depending on your purging - and your heart is experiencing stress at a HORRENDOUS rate. Then, factoring the cutting: infections, blood poisoning, permanent scarring causing emotional damage, possible "accidental suicide" when you hit a vein/artery.

Point is, there is no safe control with either disorder. And both are being generated from a similar deeper issue. Do you have a therapist or psychologist you can speak with? If not, I would suggest you talk to one immediately. And treat both at the same time. If you ween off of one, the other will gain strength, and it will just become a cycle of back and forth. you can't barter with them, take them both head on. There are support groups as well that dab in both.

At the moment I am dealing with me ed/self harm, and the fact that while in recovery, I became a compulsive exerciser. Now, I've just channeled everything I had with ed into running. Which, since my heart is rather weak from years of ed, I am learning will be the death of me. The other day I passed out while running and was admitted to the hospital...again. My heart is in dire straights, and I am only 25. It's pretty sad when your doctor tells you "at this rate, you'll be lucky to hit 30."

I hear you on the struggles of finding compromise, but you gotta talk to someone and find the roots of the evils.

I used to use drugs but don't anymore. I've never had an eating disorder so can't imagine how hard it must be for you. You're dealing with 2 harmful things. I would think that getting the bulemia under control first would be the best idea. I know what it's like when you take one thing away when you haven't dealt with the other.
It also could put more pressure on you to cut if you try kicking both at the same time.
Are you getting help for the bulemia or are you thinking about it?

anorexic/cutter here.
I found that once I stopped cutting my anorexia got even worse.

It was a control thing for me, I could control my pain you know?

I think that we have both just substituted one addiction for another.

I'm here and I understand.

Thank you for your replies, I feel understood now. I am on therapy, and trying hard not to cut or have bulimic behavior. I do have problems with my teeth, diabetis, a lot of gastrointestinal problems because of purging.
thank you for reading.