so i was up in the mountains so i didn't have any internet so theses are all four days that i missed. so i screwed up. extremely screwed up. a bunch of the guys i was with were making fun of gay people. they don't know that im actually gay but i got pissed off and attacked them. i may have blacked out but i don't even remember what i did but i was in BIG trouble. so i wasn't even aloud out of my cabin. i just started cutting, i think i had cut for at least an hour. i don't know. there was blood everywhere. i was barely able to walk. luckily i'm in a cabin by myself so I don't have to worry about other people seeing all of the blood. anyways I screwed up. and lost a LOT of blood. my leg still hurts right now. Im in so much pain, not just from cutting but by them making fun of people that are gay.