Self-Injury Support Group
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Over the years, I've always heard that one reason people cut themselves is to feel real, and I've always just said that that's not me. I have my reasons, but I always felt real. I didn't need cutting to feel real.
It's a twisted way to put it, but... I guess you don't know what you've got till it's gone.
It's been 11 days now, and suddenly I have this feeling... like I don't exist, or I'm not a real person. Like I'm just here, with no purpose or definition. I'm not even ME anymore. I'm just here.
It used to be, "My name is Flower. I'm a cutter. Here are my cuts to prove it."
Now, I don't even know who or what I am. I can say "I'm a cutter," but there's nothing there to back that up. I can say "I'm a recovered cutter," but I'm not. I still stuggle every single day. That can't be real recovery.
Is there anyone else out there that wants to stop cutting, but feels like this without it? How do you make it go away? Help?
It's a twisted way to put it, but... I guess you don't know what you've got till it's gone.
It's been 11 days now, and suddenly I have this feeling... like I don't exist, or I'm not a real person. Like I'm just here, with no purpose or definition. I'm not even ME anymore. I'm just here.
It used to be, "My name is Flower. I'm a cutter. Here are my cuts to prove it."
Now, I don't even know who or what I am. I can say "I'm a cutter," but there's nothing there to back that up. I can say "I'm a recovered cutter," but I'm not. I still stuggle every single day. That can't be real recovery.
Is there anyone else out there that wants to stop cutting, but feels like this without it? How do you make it go away? Help?
valgal18
one of the many reasons i cut is to prove to myself and others-mostly ot myself-that i'm real, i'm human, i am a person, i'm alive etc etc......one day in november or october-i can't remember when-i had this huge urge and eventually cut once and then disposed of the tool.....when i don't cut i still feel alive and like a person.....but i can understand why that happens to you and i know uncomfortable the feeling is.....if you ever wanna talk, i'm here
deleted_user
I remember when I felt like that, and I wanted to cut just to feel real, but I didn't start then. I think I tried once but I was living in a room with my mom and sister and didn't want them to see, so I didn't...I do sometimes feel like I don't exist again, though I'm not sure if I cut on those days or not....if you ever need to talk, I'm here. :)
flowerEx3
Thank you guys. This is just so frustrating. I feel like the longer I go without cutting the worse it gets. I feel like I'm nothing now. I just want this feeling to go away. :-(
deleted_user
i used to cut to get rid of feelings i couldnt deal with now i cut to get rid of the numbness....
deleted_user
i should add that i am trying to stop this isnt the 1st "addiction" ive gotten over but definetly the hardest. for me i try to find things i truly enjoy and keep my myself occupied. if i can go to sleep at the end of the day and feel that im not wasting my life anymore then i think im doing pretty good
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