Self-Injury Support Group

Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.

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Cutting Is My Addiction.

UniqueInEveryWay
UniqueInEveryWay
I don't know why but it is. For me when I cut I have this little ritual I suppose you can call it that. I put in my headphones listen to a certain type of music. Cut myself and just lay down on my bed and slip away from reality for a moment. I love the feeling I get when I cut. Crazy rush of endorphin and for a brief moment I feel good. I just feel so high. Then I snap back into reality and the guilt of it all comes and Im left with reminders of what Im so desperately trying to escape from. So I guess you can say Ive been clean and sober from it for quite some time now and ever now and then I will have the urge to do it again and have been able to brush those urges off but now I just find it harder and harder to do so. All my life I have pain and darkness. A lot of people has caused me so much pain. I just wanna escape so badly from reality..I feel so alone in this world... I don't know what to do. Help.
littlelucyx3
littlelucyx3
People have caused me a lot of pain too. I can't take it. Cutting helps me too. I usually don't feel guilty afterwards, but that's because I don't do it as severely as I would like to.

Are you still around these people who have hurt you? That can definitely make things worse.
tryingtobestrong5
tryingtobestrong5
Cutting is like a moment of release. No matter how dumb or wrong that may sound to some people, it's true for us. That's because we don't know what to do with all the pain we feel. We want to get rid of it and I guess we cut to create a physical pain so we can forget about our mental pain for a little bit. Escaping from reality, running off into another dimension, waking up from a bad dream, finding out we were meant for something greater, these are all things we want to do. It sounds so easy but it sounds so impossible for it to happen ._. but anyways you're not alone, there are people who love you despite all those who cause you pain. There will always be someone who cares for you.
UniqueInEveryWay
UniqueInEveryWay
I try so hard to try to improve my life. For the better and I end up stuck in the same spot in my life. I try to reach out to those around me but I get no help. I feel like im being dragged down in life. I'm tired of having thoughts of how things would be so much better if I was no longer around. I've been through some pretty bad things in life and I try to receive as much help and support as I can get. I'm seeing a professional Monday morning so hopefully she can help me with these feelings. I"ll keep those interested updated on how it went and I thank those who reached out to me in any way.
littlelucyx3
littlelucyx3
Did you go this Monday as in today? Or is it next Monday?
krzysoxnpokadots
krzysoxnpokadots
I definitely understand where you're coming from. I feel much the same. Cuting really is an addiction. Just try to shake the urges and distract yourself as much as possible. You can message me if you ever need to
UniqueInEveryWay
UniqueInEveryWay
Yes I saw a professional this past Monday. It was a very intense session. She had opened my eyes to things I have been avoiding and just too afraid to admit to myself. I must take some time to process this all and decide on what I want to do. It's time that I decide on what makes me happy in life and stop letting people decide for me.