i'm sorry that your life isn't positive right now.....i can't support you in your decision to self injure/cut but i can support you in your decision to continue to fight through the tough times......life really does really suck at times and i've had moments where i've wanted to end it all....at those times i went to the hospital and got help....and i am so happy that i did.....i graduated college in may and i got a job....i have second cousins who are babies and a cousin is pregnant....i have a cousin who is one years old.....i would recommend talking to a therapist about what's going on and getting help.....things are difficult but things can and do get better....it just takes time....try doing things to occupy your mind and hands when you feel like cutting....i do word searches like mad.....i know some people rearrange furniture or do yoga.....i also like to read and clean.....i love playing with silly putty and now that it's Christmas time i can wrap presents :) if you want to talk please feel free to message me....i hope this helped

hi April
we don't have Thanksgiving here in Australia, but I've been told that it can be a hard time if one feels isolated and depressed? I think your Thanksgiving holiday is partly why things are so quiet here at the moment. It's been a few days since you posted, i hope you're beginning to feel better, and your urge to cut is easing
kevin

Stay strong :) I know how you feel, just a few days ago I was having suicidal thoughts and I really wanted to cut. I remember I called a friend because I wouldn't stop crying and the friend really made me feel better. I feel much better now, I found a new band to listen to, and I'm not even close to feeling as bad as I was. So we're here for you, you can get through this. If you need to scream, go for it. Get out all the negative feeling you have inside. But I do encourage you to find ways to do that without cutting, a rubber band at my writs is what helps me. Good luck and I wish you the best :)