Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.
I have struggled with cutting for
Almost 15 years. Only one other time did I try burning and it left a few scars but my memory is spotty and I can't actually remember it that well. This past week I grabbed a lighter and heated it up and presses it on to my skin and held it there for as long as I could. The adrenaline rise and the pain.... Wow.... I have a crazy high pain tolerance and so it gets pretty bad before I take it away. I am scared. There are times where I can disassociate from the pain and barely feel a thing. I am scared it will get worse and worse and yet I don't want to stop. I am scared of infection and don't really know how to treat burns. I have no problem with cuts. And cutting was never really about the blood. It was the pain and seeing how deep I could go. I am sorry if this is triggering... I don't know where else to talk about it without people flipping out. I guess I need advise for how to treat and if anyone else has struggled like this.
Almost 15 years. Only one other time did I try burning and it left a few scars but my memory is spotty and I can't actually remember it that well. This past week I grabbed a lighter and heated it up and presses it on to my skin and held it there for as long as I could. The adrenaline rise and the pain.... Wow.... I have a crazy high pain tolerance and so it gets pretty bad before I take it away. I am scared. There are times where I can disassociate from the pain and barely feel a thing. I am scared it will get worse and worse and yet I don't want to stop. I am scared of infection and don't really know how to treat burns. I have no problem with cuts. And cutting was never really about the blood. It was the pain and seeing how deep I could go. I am sorry if this is triggering... I don't know where else to talk about it without people flipping out. I guess I need advise for how to treat and if anyone else has struggled like this.
I am sorry that you are dealing with this. Do you see a therapist? If not maybe you could try to get one. That way you won't have to deal with this alone and maybe they could help you.
Do you know what is triggering you to want to hurt yourself so much? And, do you have any other coping skills that you try to use instead of self harming too much?
I have tried to see a therapist for almost 2 months but between working part time and a course I have been taking and keeping my household and raising my daughter and being a wife, I have had to cancel 3 times... I have an appt. For Jan 9.
I do know what triggered it all starting again a couple months ago. And now I am just spiraling down and trying to claw my way out