Hey... I don't really have an eating disorder... or at least I don't think I do. It's not really that bad yet. Anyways, sometimes I starve myself... So I know what you mean about hurting yourself a lot more than when you cut yourself. For a while, I sort of replaced cutting with not eating. It was my sense of control I guess...

Anyways... You might want to talk to someone about this, especially if you're throwing up blood. That could be serious. I'm know medical expert or anything though... Do you see a therapist at all? You could talk to them about this.

I'm here if you want to talk, I'm usually on most of the day, or you can PM me to just vent or rant or for advice or whatever. I'm here for you :) Also, there's an Eating Disorders support group on here, and talking to the people there could help. Good luck. **hugs**

If you are passing blood or vomiting blood you need to see a doctor asap. As a bulimic you have a higher risk of rupturing your oesophagus amongst other internal injuries.

Thank you for reading and taking the time to answer my post.
I do have a therapist, she knows I have a lot of problems with food, but I havent told her about the blood.
Thanks again.

i have an eating disorder as well as cutting.. so i do know how you feel about hurting urself more than when you cut yourself... usually with me my bulimia replaces my cutting and vice versa... so i have been trying to find better ways of producing pain that dont hurt myself ie leace marks, hurt me internally etc... like one way is get two really big ice cubes and hold them in ur hand and clamp down really hard until the pain becomes too much or they melt... try that... or a rubber bands being snapped on my wrist... sometimes just that feeling of pain... works for the moment... Good luck hun and if you need to talk let me know... *hugs*

Thank you. I really want to stop, but I cant. I wish I could control it better. With cutting, I am in control, but with food, it controls me.

hi i have the same problem but i'm dealing with the bulimia a long time ago, if you are vomitin blood you need to go the dr and stop the bingin is hard but you can do it , i read that you have a terapist need to talk to him/her, have some self control in both issues if you like we can talk i'm from mexico so now we have 3 things in common ;) be strong you can do it

I can understand hope you feel. I have cutting and a minor disorder of bulimia and anorexia. You can talk to me if you want to any time. I am here for you but i do believe that you need to talk to yout therapist if you haven't already. Things can pass. Try destracting yourself. Xwatch tv that is appropriate and you can also come on here to talk and people will help you through so you don't cut or make yourself vomit. Something that may look like blood doesn't't alwacys mean it is blood. So talk to people and they will help you pass the time by and you will make it through. Hope i helped!!!!!!!!!

Hey:)

I don't think it's uncommon to have an ED and to cut. I have emetophobia (fear of vomiting) which, for me, mimicks the symptoms of an ED in that I severely restrict my intake.

I agree with you...the ED is hurting you much more than a superficial cut. I know accidents and infections happen, but an ED can screw up your body for life; I'm hoping mine hasn't been but there's a good chance it has.

Throwing up blood is never good. You could have ruptured something, or even have a bleeding ulcer. Please tell a doctor about that soon...don't wanna scare you or anything but a severe rupture can kill you.

Please take care of yourself, and stay strong. Always here to talk if you need an ear:)

Hugs

thank you so much guys! I made an appoinment with my doctor and I am going to tell her about the throwing up blood. Thanks again, I appreciate you answer my post.

i started pugring when i stopped cutting. i needed something to replace the cutting, and i still wanted to hurt myself. for me, bulimia was a type of self-injury. still is i guess. vomiting blood is BAD. you need to see a doctor. i think ed's are actually worse than self-injury. cuts heal and scar, but an ed can mess you up forever. plus they're harder to get rid of. you can quit hurting yourself, but you can't quit food. anyway i know what you're going through. HUGS!!!