Self-Injury Support Group

Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.

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9 years without, struggling to keep it going

NightSkye7
NightSkye7

I really need some help. I haven't cut since I was 16, but I am really struggling tonight. This is one of the worst nights I have had in years. I am struggling with the urge to cut, to the point I am afraid to leave my bed in case I see something I could use to self injure. Life has been hard lately, psych issues have been made worse than usual, and tonight I fould I was betrayed by two people I thought to be very close friends. I am having a really really hard time seeing the positive side of things, and the urges continue to get worse as the days go by. This issue with friends pushed me over the edge of what I can handle. None of my usual tricks are working. 

suicidal
suicidal
I'm so sorry they hurt you like that but 9 years is a long time to go without cutting, you're doing really well and shouldn't let anyone ruin that.
NightSkye7
NightSkye7
I'm really trying to not let all this breast me, but things keep getting worse. Now those friends have slandered me over Facebook. I found it a conversation I had with one off them about being concerned for the other, because she came to me saying she was worried for the others safety. Today I got 17 messages from one that were all very mean. It just keeps getting worse.
NullFantasma
NullFantasma
When your usual tricks stop working, the only thing you can really do at this point is try to get into a better mindset. It's difficult though, but I believe in you. If people betray you, they don't deserve you. They would've been a waste of your precious time and energy. Nine years isn't just amazing; it's incredible. Mind-blowing even. I hope you continue to stay clean.
cassichase
cassichase
9 years!!! That's amazing!!! Congratulations!! That is something to be proud of. I understand that you are having a difficult time right now, but don't give up your years for their foolishness. They are not worth it. Take care of you. You deserve to be treated with respect and kindness and if they cannot give it to you than give it to yourself. Respect all the hard work you did giving up SI. I'm proud of you and I'm sure others here feel the same way!! Go take a bubble bath and be kind to yourself!
NightSkye7
NightSkye7
Thank you all for your support. I have decided to just try to forget about them. It hurts and I still want to cut very badly. The girl that istagated all of this just moved out of my place (and she moved out supposedly on good terms) right before this happened. She stole some stuff when she left, and now I won't get that back. But the support and encouragement helps a lot. I'm trying to find a bright side... haven't found it yet but I'm trying.