I started self-harm 2 years ago. I used to scratch my arms and I loved the burning sensation. The scratching left no scars. After about a year, I started cutting, small shallow cuts on my arms. It hurt a lot in the beginning but I managed to convince myself that I deserved it.
I didn't cut that often, like once a month maybe.
But then school, loneliness, fights with my parents and things that happened in the past, it all came crashing down on me and I could not stop over thinking no matter how much I tried.
I do many things and have a lot that can distract me from cutting: Music, drawing, writing, reading, chatting online, going out, eating etc.
I tried all these things and nothing ever could make me forget the constant need to rip my skin open and see the blood..
I started cutting every day, about 3 months ago. I did it on my thighs because my brother and parents saw some scars on my arms..
So it was like a goal for me to fill my thighs with scars..and that's exactly what I did...
Then I started cutting more on my arms.. and now it's like a drug..
Last time I cut was last night.. and I'm going to do it again..
I don't know why I'm writing this.. but..
I'm here if you wanna talk because I'd love to help out.