Self-Injury Support Group

Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.

3,568 Members
20,524 Posts
0 Online
Mental Health
/ Self-Injury Support Group

Relapse

xTris
xTris
I am 16. All the time, I would cut when I was 15. Finally, after my third suicide attempt, I landed myself in the hospital. It's been about seven months, and I have began cutting again. Suicidal thoughts have worked their way back into my mind and my legs are lacerated. My arms are still clean as I MUST keep this to myself. If my family finds out, they will send me back to the hospital or they'll be disappointed...
Either way, I must keep this a secret. I am not sure what to do without my knife by my side or how I managed those seven months, but now, cutting is becoming a daily routine.
sadiegirl13
sadiegirl13
Can you tell us what helped you to stay clean the last 7 mos, and what caused the relapse?
LoveAlice
LoveAlice
I'm sorry you are feeling so badly. :( Is there something that triggered you to have to cut again? And just like sadiegirl13 said, what helped you not have to cut? You did go a really long time without having to do it, which is great!
xTris
xTris
It was a lot of positive thinking and personally, I lost some weight and my confidence increased. I excersized and even played a lot of video games. Mainly, though, I practiced my guitar. That really helped me.

I got my medication changed and I believe that had a lot to do with the relapse, but also, the end of the school year while failing some classes.

Last night I broke down and told my mom everything and that I feel suicidal again. She didn't really know what to say. I don't know how much longer I can go on.
LoveAlice
LoveAlice
Music and working out is what helps me too! Also congrats on the weight loss that's awesome! Sorry your mom wasn't really supportive when you told her, or that she just didn't know what to say.

Since you can't really do anything about failing those classes, try not to let it linger over you. I know that's easier said than done. If you are still in school I would say do what you can, but you can only do so much! It will be okay. Maybe next year someone can help you in the subjects you are struggling with? Everyone struggles at something!
xTris
xTris
That makes me feel better actually, thank you!
kandeekandy733
kandeekandy733
I understand why you need to keep it a secret, that is what I am doing too. Keep cutting if it makes you feel better but do not go too far we don't want to lose you, feel better hon. hugs
LoveAlice
LoveAlice
Good, I'm glad! :)
sadiegirl13
sadiegirl13
Kudos to you for reaching out to your mom!! I'm sorry that she wasn't sure what she should say, but telling her is a HUGE step in the right direction!

School can be overwhelming, and then when you're spending so much time and energy just trying to be well (mentally and physically) sometimes school falls by the wayside. I agree with LoveAlice, don't let the bad grades hang over you, and prepare yourself to get academic help in the fall. You might as well focus on enjoying summer while it's here!

I hope playing your guitar still helps you to feel better - keep doing it! Playing music helps me too, along with drawing.

Best wishes for you!