Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.
So I have been clean for over a year.
And usually I wouldn't come here for advice, I learned to handle it alone. But today I just have it really bad.
The trigger is kind of "twisting the kaleidoscope behind both of my eyes", its changing my perspective to the point in which I'm not sure if staying clean is the best idea. Relapsing doesn't seem that big of a deal and I don't even know why I'm holding myself back anymore.
But of course theres a that tiny bit of instinct inside me that told me to go to someone, and that someone is here. I was just afraid of triggering other people - but I guess this is the only place I can come to by now.
It just keeps me in line. I feel like I've lost control over myself and I remember how calm I seemed to others when I did it, when it was just an inside battle I took out on myself.
Since I stopped I have gone out more, I have demonstrated myself to the world, but that includes the bad side.
And I don't want that. I want to keep myself under control when I'm in public. I thought that by stopping I would eventually find other ways to cope but it hasn't been the case and God I just want to control myself. I miss it. I want my control back.
And usually I wouldn't come here for advice, I learned to handle it alone. But today I just have it really bad.
The trigger is kind of "twisting the kaleidoscope behind both of my eyes", its changing my perspective to the point in which I'm not sure if staying clean is the best idea. Relapsing doesn't seem that big of a deal and I don't even know why I'm holding myself back anymore.
But of course theres a that tiny bit of instinct inside me that told me to go to someone, and that someone is here. I was just afraid of triggering other people - but I guess this is the only place I can come to by now.
It just keeps me in line. I feel like I've lost control over myself and I remember how calm I seemed to others when I did it, when it was just an inside battle I took out on myself.
Since I stopped I have gone out more, I have demonstrated myself to the world, but that includes the bad side.
And I don't want that. I want to keep myself under control when I'm in public. I thought that by stopping I would eventually find other ways to cope but it hasn't been the case and God I just want to control myself. I miss it. I want my control back.
Now for the rest. Putting you full self out there is something that we all are supposed to do but don't want to do. So you are a step a head of me. We all have those days of relapsing and feel guilty or better about it. Me when I end up relapsing, and I have, I feel both guilty and better. I know it sounds strange but it is true. Snapping a rubber band on the wrist, or taking a red pen or marker across your skin might help. It also might help if you talked about what is making you feel the way you do. People sometimes offer the best responses to our problems.