Yes, people know and care. I started having the same issues when I was your age, and have battled them somewhat successfully for the past 7 years. ... I attempted 3 times, twice of which the doctors didn't understand how it was medically possible that I survived. After ICU visits and commitment holds in a psych ward, I realized that (although I'm far from religious) that keeping on that road was going to get me nowhere, that I would never succeed. So I got a tattoo with the date of the last attempt, and use it as a daily reminder that I have now decided to Live. ... It has not been an easy struggle, or one that I want to do somedays. but there are rays of light in that darkness - and there are plenty of people here who would love to help you see that.

I understand why you feel so alone in those thoughts. Part of that is the spiral/deep dark pit feelings on their own. But a lot of it is that if someone really has never had any sort of experience with such deep dark issues they can't comprenend it at all. Which in turn can make you feel more alone. ... But again there are many of us here who have battled this for a long time, and have obviously gotten to the other side of that war-zone. Help is here, and it is given with ease and hope. Please remember that!

Try to take care of yourself this weekend, do a little self-soothing: watch a good movie, take a nice bath, go for a walk - anything that can make you smile or relax even for just a few minutes. You deserve it!

-M

I use to think exactly this a few years ago, thought no one cares or will care if I end my life and that I'm a burden. It took being hospitalized several times to see that I am cared for and loved.

I find therapy a good release instead of cutting, or anything that you love to do that helps distract from cutting or pain. Or if you feel you desperately need help asap talk to your family or call a suicide hotline, please stay strong.