Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.
So lately I've been having suicidal thoughts. I told a friend and she says that I should really tell someone else. I then told my therapist and then she said that as long as I felt safe that I was okay(when I told her back then things weren't so horrible) well now I think by keeping it in, things got worse. Way worse. Every day at like 9pm, I have these thoughts. It's never really gotten to a plan yet but it's just really negative thoughts like "things would be better with me gone." or "I wouldn't have to stress so much if I were just gone." so far I've been able to control my cutting but I don't know how much longer I can be so strong for. When these thoughts come I go to bed, I don't think its good to be going to bed at 8:30-9 and waking up at 6 for school everyday. I don't know if I want to tell someone tomorrow (school counselor) and possibly get sent to the hospital or if I want to keep pretending that I'm perfectly okay. But I'm not.....
If you keep having these thoughts its best to get help tell a school counselor or if you have a counselor on the side tell them call them leave them a message book an appointment to see them.
Having thoughts like you are having will only get worse if you keep trying to pretend everything is ok when its not.
Saying you have theses thoughts wont get you committed! If your a risk to yourself then they will. you have no plan and no means to carry out. your simply having the horrible dark thoughts. and they are being caused by something. And talking to a person about your problems stresses what is bugging you and why you think death is the answer.. if they feel your safe they allow you to leave. If you are having these thoughts at night there are helplines that you can call and talk to someone about your feeling and thoughts. if you dont feel safe go to the hospital. tell them the truth and ask to speak with a crisis nurse. it takes a strong person to ask for help when they need it.
you will get through this we all have rough patches in life but life is worth living. I say this as not too long ago I was set on ending my life and instead I choose life instead and over the last couple of days my life has changed and I have become happier and have had great things happen in my life that I would have never have seen or heard or experienced. I am very glad I choose to stay around!
you need to know what you really want and if you want to be happy and stop having the thoughts then you need to ask for help and talk to someone instead of hiding it.
if you dont want the help and you want to keep having the thoughts and them get worse then keep them to yourself.. I really hope that you will choose to tell someone and not pretend anymore. :)
you have lots of support here! stay strong and I hope you make the best choice for you! :)
hugs!