Hey Lizzy, it's ok to be scared of cutting, that's how I started out. Don't think of it as being too afraid to cut, but being strong enough not to. So if you think you're afraid now, don't try to challenge that, that's a good fear and hopefully it will keep you from cutting. Drawing on yourself is an alternative to cutting, so you're right it can really look like the real thing. I read your journal and I'm glad you made that list for your dad. It looks like things are getting better, he may be texting her a lot, but at least he's spending more time with you. Just confront him and tell him that you don't feel like he's giving any notice to you, and that it's really hurting you. Stay strong!

dude it OKAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!

once upon a time i cut myself and trust me it feels really crappy afterwards there r other ways. i know full well everyone says it will get better BLAH BLAH BLAH and u r just thinking um.... and when dose that happen but it dose running is good and also boxing or just something you can hit.

i know its hard i know it sucks but remember no matter what happens today there will be tomorrow no matter what.

it may suck royaly today but in a years time u will go gggahhhhhhh that sucked and u will realise what u have how far u have come

hope it helps but remember its okay time goes on and some days you just have to say screw you world

kia kaha- stay strong

Thanks both of you! I really appreciate it.