good to have you here shygirl; sorry to hear you're having a hard time

well shygirl, you are doing the best possible thing you can do...reach out...you will find this group is very understanding supportive attentive reassuring and capable of listening to you when you need it most...we are non judgmental here which makes it a warm safe place to let your hair down relax and chime in any time...with that said, let me welcome you to the group...can i ask, are you seeing a therapist? on meds? if so maybe you need a med check to increase or change one for another...if not , maybe its time to think about going to your local mental health center and walk in there with your chin up and tell them how you are feeling towards things and yourself...they can and will help you regardless of inability to pay...just a consideration...i hope you feel better and soon! if you feel the need to talk feel free to add me and we can chat often...i'm on different times everyday ok ...it WILL get better

thank you both i've been trying for a long time to reach out i'm just at the point i can't take it any more so i self harm instead. i am seeing a counclor who is not really doing a good job but i'm trying my best i'm sticking it out and i'm on meds.

It's good that you're willing to hang in there; as for the therapist situation; give it some time; it can take a while til you start seeing results and if you don't after a long enough time period, think about changing therapists; I know some ppl on here who have changed quite a few times until they found the right one for them. :)

i've been hanging on since i was 12 or before then its been years that i've just felt like this i do want to change i was feeling better but then its just going down hill again and i can't take it i'm being as strong as i can but being told that i need to leave by counclors is not easy i tried that and failed and had to drop out of school which i'm back i'm stressed and its like the only thing they care about is my safety i get that but sometimes i just wish they would listen and not tell me i need to find another place to live

totally understand what you mean; safety is important but they shouldn't lose sight of the fact that you're a person; your whole person needs to be treated and not just one aspect of yourself; it's a shame many forget that.

exactly but they don't see that nor do they understand i want to get out i want to be with my aunt in the states but if canada cared they would help me do that if they thought my safety was bad but yet i've been turned down and i'm just about had it because i feel most of the organizations are a joke and if you want i'll explain why over the im

Ugh; sorry to hear they're being such a pain about the entire thing; ja I buzzed you on IM.