Self-Injury Support Group

Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.

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loum50 04/22/2015

I haven't cut in a long time, but I just started again. I'm in depression and I'm angry and all I want to do is hurt myself. I'm also mad at myself for cutting again. I go to dialysis and the staff is very concerned. They want me to go to a psyc hospital and I think that would just make me feel worse. They may make me go, but I won't go willingly.

I tell them it's no big deal and that I've been hurting myself in one way or another since I was very young. I don't understand why there take it so seriously.

tryingtobestrong5 04/22/2015

Being in your shoes, it took me a while to realize that we don't have clear heads when depression talks to us. They may know what's best, even if we think we're fine because we've done for so long we feel nothing bad will happen. For us it's just a way to relieve pain or a cry for help, for them it's a sign that they need to do something. They're just trying to do what they know.

loum50 04/22/2015

I realize I'm not rational when I'm in depression. I also understand that they don't want me to hurt myself and want me to be safe. I may need to be in the hospital, but I've been there so much and I can't stand it there.

Thanks for replying. It helps to have someone who understands. It's hard for someone who hasn't been there to understand.

littlelucyx3 04/22/2015

Hello loum. The only way that they can MAKE you go inpatient is if you threaten to kill yourself or someone else.

So, as long as you do not make any suicidal or homicidal threats to them, they canNOT force you into a hospital.

littlelucyx3 04/22/2015

I've been inpatient too and I agree that it does only make things worse. Because, the staff do not understand and they treat you like shit. The whole thing is pointless, really.

loum50 04/23/2015

I so want to cut right now. I'm so angry I can't stand it.

tryingtobestrong5 04/23/2015

LittleLucy, I think you're right and wrong. There are probably many people who work at a hospital and have been through the same thing. And yes, some don't understand, but they do try how they can. Be strong loum!!!

loum50 04/24/2015

My visiting nurse told my doctor about my cutting and she wanted to see me today. They seem so paranoid about it. They are just concerned about me, but I don't think it's such a big deal.

littlelucyx3 04/27/2015

I'm just speaking from my experiences. Being in there was a living hell for me and I left worse than what I already was. So, I just don't want anyone else to go through that.

tryingtobestrong5 04/27/2015

I'm sorry it didn't work out well for you LittleLucy, but please don't stop trusting people because of some bad experiences. Loum, I think it's understandable for them to seem paranoid about it and act like it's a big deal. Some people don't understand at all the reasons for why anyone would want to harm themselves. I'm sometimes jealous of them, since it seems like everything is great for them. I like to think they just have a better thought process and they see things more clearly.

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