I just need to vent. And this is the only place I know I can... I'm so close to a slip up.... losing it. Long story short. I was abused by my step brother for years. I had 2 younger sisters.. I tried to tell my mom. She ignored me. I stayed. Better me than them right? It was all pushed under the rug. Once the word got out after me trying to kill myself and waking up in the ER. My dad looked at me and said wtf could be so bad in your life... he had no idea. My mom lied to the police said it was once. He was punished by having to do my chores for a summer. I grew up I forgave my mom. Even though she still let my sister's spend holidays with him. Well my mom and my sister that I stayed and got rapped for just told me I'm not a part of the family. Better off i know... hurt... wanting to be numb.. yes.... hard to fight today...