so my parents and i went to my grandparents' house last night o celebrate the new year and then we spent the night.....my brother came back from college and the other one was here and they threw a party with their friends.....my parents and i came back in the morning around 11 and at noon i was sitting on the couch watching the football game and asked a question and no one answered....my oldest brother was teaching my mom about her new phone, my other brother was talking with his friends who were still here and my dad was focussed on sending e-mails.....well that just made me feel plain ignored and i started crying.....i realized how lonely i am......i have very few friends some who only talk to me on occasion.....i barely talk to anyone......i barely get out of my house because i have nowhere to go......i feel so damn lonely......then the suicide and cutting thoughts start coming into play.....if i'm ignored at home, why would it matter if i was gone??? i know that this is distorted thinking and i'm not planning to commit suicide or anything....and then my grandma yesterday would not drop the fact that i don't wanna move ot wisconsin and all that crap......soooo wondering if anyone else self injures when they feel lonely??? also, does anyone go for a few months without self injuring and then after things pile up and you just explode and self injure??? i feel like i do that, too