What made you decide to stop two years ago? What kept you going down that path for two entire years? This is what is going to help you get through this. A friend of mine was a cutter, as am I. She fell into a bad place that she felt she could not get out of and ultimately ended her life. This was my moment. This was the moment I decided that living for what she will miss was enough for me to stop. You had a moment two years ago that made you stop, you can find that reason again.

All of us on here have made a decision to turn to cutting for one reason or another. I will never say that I feel my life would have been better had I never started because I honestly feel like there are times when I needed it. I still feel I need it sometimes. It is a part of me and always will be. But it doesn't have to be what defines me anymore.

You are the person you are meant to be. If you know nothing else in your life, know that you are the most perfect you that you could ever be. Know that one day you will find a reason not to cut again. Don't beat yourself down for going back to it. Just use it to find your way back.

What made me want to stop? I realised that if i carried on self harming one day id end up dead. I was cutting more and deeper everytime u c. But now its different, now i just dont care.
A huge part of me even wants to die bcz none of my family want me around or would even notice if i was gone...

Hey nemesis6,

I don't know if you remember me, but we exchanged messages a while ago. I've been clean for 16 months now and I still get urges. You may be feeling really low right now because you cut again. My advice would be; don't. Sometimes situations we find ourselves in overwhelm us. You made a mistake. People do care. I care. If you think you want to talk, send me a message. Either way, you will get through this.

Don't let this be a setback for you dear. You went two years without cutting, that is not progress that just goes away because you slipped up and self harmed. You have the strength to go on without it, you've done it before, you might just have to dig for it a little deeper this time.

It is always going to be a battle, I think, in some way, shape, or form. I still get it from time to time, when I get very upset. But what stops me is that I remind myself there is so much more to life than hurting myself.

You are loved and you have so much to live for, even if you can't find a reason just yet. I couldn't for many years, and now, well now I have quite a few,

Don't give up on yourself, please. And if you ever want to talk, message me.

If you did without it for 2 years you can do it again, every now and then I'm off it for about a year maybe less and have a slip up here and there, doesn't mean I'm a failure even though it seems like that at the time, it's okay :) Then I get back on the wagon after sorting out my mind.