Self-Injury Support Group

Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.

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YouAreMyForever 05/27/2011

So, my ex (just broke up a few days ago) kept me from cutting for 15 months... the other day i fell apart, I DID cut... but it didnt feel the same. I just didnt see the point in it. I didnt know why i did it. and i dont feel like doing it again...it doesnt feel "good" anymore... but a part of me wants to do it... I dont wanna give him the pleasure of knowing he keeps me from it.. i wanna punish him....it sounds pretty sick. but then again, i dont wanna do that to him.... i'm just stuck. I know cutting isnt the answer, but i just dont know what IS the answer :/ i'm trying to make myself feel better....but i was with him for over a year.. and theres still a part of me, a BIG part of me that wants to make HIM happy..

deleted_user 05/27/2011

Here's a lesson. Break-ups suck. And guys are idiots. Its hard I know. You are better off not cutting, if you are not already you could get addicted to it and then its extremely hard to quit.

I understand what you mean about not wanting to do it but then again you do...it seems to me that could be a sign you are already slowly getting addicted.

Something that helped me is go talk to your guidance counselor at least about the break up if not about the cutting too. They can help you help sort out your feelings.

I'm here if you ever want to talk hun! Keep your chin up, you'll be okay!

deleted_user 05/27/2011

the best thing for you right now, honestly, is a little distraction. try going to see a movie, or watching a really funny TV show. break ups do suck. and yes, some guys do suck (not all of us do!). i know a part of you wants to make him happy... but right now, let's focus on making YOU happy and then once we get that far, we'll go from there :)

YouAreMyForever 05/27/2011

paramore, I don't have a guidance counselor..
sweetmisery, I've had my t.v on 24/7...just to have some kind of thing to distract me from thinkin..

deleted_user 05/29/2011

What can I say, everyone has already said it. BREAKUPS SUCK, distract yourself, recently I got dumped and now I'm copping **** from people at school for it, because apparently it's my fault?! Well done for lasting so long without cutting, but I don't think it's him being around that stopped you. I think it's the feeling of being loved, that someone really, really close is going to be there for you and listen when you want to talk.

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