Someone who cuts future is scary cos the sad thing is if you do not get help it will become worse you cut more and deeper with time and it becomes really dangerous. And the deeper you cut the worse and more notesobel the scares become. I have made peace with ppl asking me about it and telling them its long ago and I don't want to talk about it. I always tried to hide it cos I was embarrassed. Now I see them as apart of me.. sort of like war scares. ( my personal war with my self )
My best advise is to try and get help or sort out the main problan and your urge to cut will be less, and then you will have oopsies, even sully when you have oopsys you are a bit more afraid to cut like the first time. If you get help I can tell you you probably never fully stop. You will stay clean for months. And feel so shit when you fail and do it again. But don't be proud of that you managed so long. In my exspearians, cutting is one of the worst addictions to get over, But the sooner you try to stop the easier it will be. Yup Life itself is scary but if you try to make a good life for yourself things fall in place but you have to help it fall in place and think hard about your dissensions cos life can be hard and cruel sometimes, but just make the best out of every situationist and you will be ok my dear.