I don't understand why I always come home from being with my family or people in general why I always end up feeling more alone and crying I feel as though I just want to die I'm so tired of this life people laugh at me everywhere I go and when I'm with people I love I just feel so invisible and more alone I'm really want to cut tonight I want this pain to stop even if for a minute

I don't understand why I always come home from being with my family or people in general why I always end up feeling more alone and crying I feel as though I just want to die I'm so tired of this life people laugh at me everywhere I go and when I'm with people I love I just feel so invisible and more alone I'm really want to cut tonight I want this pain to stop even if for a minute

Sorry for that

I wish it weren't so for you my friend. This world can be a cold and cruel place to be sure. Cutting is only going to increase your self hate though. It will make you feel worse. Please don't go there. Giving into the urge is liable to set you back on a bad run with that particular addiction. I have managed to quit and I know you can too. I can't say enough how proud I am of you for being so brave and opening up so completely. The more I know of you and your situation the more I am moved with compassion and respect for you. You are not a loser my friend for you endure unspeakable difficulties with incredible courage and perseverance. Please keep helping us to get to know and love and respect you. I am sending hugs your way.

I failed today and cut I'm sorry. I'm sorry for bringing it up. I'm proud of you Steve too.

If you knew how many times and in how many ways I have failed in my life you would not feel bad about this situation. You are not alone in failing to resist addictive urges. The most important thing is that you get up and don't keep going with this. Learn from what happened and move on. Don't waste time in hating yourself. You have plenty of people who put you down--please don't be one of them.

I'm sorry I didn't mean to worry anyone, its just I don't have anywhere to vent or to be honest with my thoughts and how I feel I've been contiplating calling on phone councilling but wouldn't know how to talk I wouldn't want any cops here I just need to vent I guess

I am very happy that you feel comfortable sharing your struggles in this group. That is what we are here for and the way you are opening up really is so very good for you and represents big progress for you. From what you have told me the hospital isn't necessary at this time. If your life is ever really on the line please do go to the hospital or make a call--at that point you have a lot to lose if you don't ask for help. Keep venting as much as you want! Sending hugs and love and prayers your way.