I do not cut and I do not understand much about it. I am sorry you are going through this though. Hugs to you and try to do something else with your time.

I am sorry to hear you are cutting. I don't cut. Please get some help with this.

I used to cut a lot and have some big scars to prove it. I rarely get really tempted to do it anymore. I am not sure how I stopped but it can happen, hang in there.

Steve has told me that cutting is like a two-edged sword: 1) It slices through the numbness of having no feelings - you feel something again and that is a release; 2) It is a punishment for all the wrongs that you have done or that were done to you. "Someone has to pay the price," is the intent. If the ones who wronged you won't take responsibility to make the payment, then you do it for them by cutting yourself to ribbons.

The trouble with this form of release and retribution is that it damages both your body and your soul. Your body is having a hard enough time coping with the process of staying alive. I consider my body to be a child that my adult mind takes care of. You would not take a razor to a child, would you? Of course not! It is not fair for you to do harm to your body when it is trying so hard to serve you well.

The damage to your soul happens when you pay for something with the incorrect currency. Cutting doesn't even the scales or absolve the wrong-doing. If anything, it makes it worse. You may feel good in these first stages, but I know from others that the path leads to the deepest kind of despair. It becomes an addiction - and like most addictions, the potential for infection, disease, and death are increased dramatically.

So, my heartfelt cry to you is to stop this process now, before it really gets a hold on you. It's not worth it. Something in you knows it is not right for you because you made this post. Telling others of your struggle is the first step in stopping it. Good job!!! Now take the next step and remove those implements of torture (razor blades) from your environment. Refuse to buy more. Get an electric razor to shave. Then you must get help to work through the issues that brought you to cutting. You'll have to go deep and be very brave. You will need someone to help you through it.

This is not something you can do alone! Who can you go to? Decide what you can do to move in a positive direction. Cutting is moving you in a negative direction and you've been through enough, dear friend. Like Steve, someday you will realize you just don't want to do that anymore - that will be the day you are free. Please stop hurting yourself now - it will be easier today to stop than to stop a week, a month, or years later.

I shall keep you in my prayers. Keep us updated. No matter what, we are here for you and will support you through your journey. (((hugs)))

I completely understand how you feel and how cutting makes you feel kittycat, when I started it came from nowhere , I didn't understand it in any way or shape, still don't but it releases something that brings a silent calm that only you as an individual can understand. I hope youu find the answers you seek and a new 'healthy' calm. Hugs x

i know the feeling is like a euphoria type thing it is amazing high.I talked to my pdoc last night and she mentioned a few things for me to do either go to hospital for impatinent which I am not doing go to a day program which I am not doing or go to some program for women but which is over an hour a way which I am not doing soooooo that leaves me with?? She upped my kolonopin to 3 times a day maybe that will help. I just don't understand this whole thing and how to deal with it.

If the Dr. thinks you need the hospital I'd go to the hospital. Hugs to you.

I was told I easily could have died from a cut I made once that got badly infected. It is a risky habit. I still hurt myself in other ways but it has been a while since I cut. I usually cut most when drunk so trying to stay sober is key. It took some time for me to overcome the desire to see my own blood pour out freely. Kitty, please don't despair and do whatever it takes to be free. I think you are a very good hearted person my friend and I know you can get better. Love and hugs.