I know it's not much, but i've manged to go about 2 weeks without cutting. And up until now i haven't had the urge, but tonight i want to cut myself. I'm fine until i get overwhelmed and overemotional. I kind of set myself up because i ignore whats wrong even though i know i'm stressing and getting worried. I instead listen to everyone else and help then with their problems and put myself last. And it's hard for me talking about my problems so I usually just hold it all in until it gets to be too much and i just give and and cut myself.
But i do my best to distract myself and fight the urge and so far i've done pretty good. I have hope that i can stop altogether. It's a big goal, but i'm taking it one day at a time.
Though, part of me does doubt myself. I can't help but think i might do it again. I hope i get through this.


sorry, i know i tend to ramble a bit.