I just think that when im not in the room my family is plotting against me. I always think that people around me are out to get me or are just plotting my end or worse. What could be worse than that i dont know. Sometimes i sit back and watch people because im scared or really just paranoid about what they are thinking about me and what they might do to me. I get really scared and feel like people are following me around or just watching me from afar. Sometimes i get scared sleeping near my window cause i think somebody is outside of it watching me and theyre gonna come in and get me(kidnap, murder or rape). I guess im still in a low place but kinda calm in someways i havent had a psychotic break in a couple months so im fine with that but im really paranoid about things like somebody driving up to the side of the car and shooting me or just shot from behind. Im paranoid that there are people in my bathroom behind the shower curtains waiting to kill me. It may sound irrational to most but anythings possible. Im really appreciative of my society the meds completely took away my imaginary friends all i have left is my society, occasional voices and visual hallucinations. I talk to another girl on a different support group and she stopped taking her meds and shes fine now no more symptoms for her anymore im wondering if i can make it too that point.