Schizophrenia Support Group
Schizophrenia is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a mental disorder characterized by impairments in the perception of reality and by significant social dysfunction. Untreated schizophrenia is typically characterized by demonstrating disorganized thinking and experiencing delusions or auditory hallucinations.
I havent been here in awhile I'm just so busy attempting to get my act together. Lately all I've been doing is smoking marijuana and I guess its working ? Too soon to tell. I take my regular meds when I'm stressed out or just to go to sleep at night. I have days where I feel no emotions at all and its weird but I get over it. My Visuals have gotten worse because my shadow is still bothering me things running past mirrors my voices are hilarious as ever these days I dont want them to ever go away. I'm very comfortable with knowing that i'll probably never get any better doing it my way but for now its all I've got to give. Other than that I have been very paranoid as of late I'm sure though many have said it I'm not in psychosis right now or at least I dont think I am. My doctor has ordered me to go to a Schizophrenia specialist seeing as she feels shes done all she can do and its not working. I'm hoping the specialist can turn things around for me.
http://www.schizophrenia.com/prevention/streetdrugs.html
Also I am confused. Do you want to be schizophrenic and have the hallucinations or do you want to see a specialist and get better? You have to choose because you cant have both. Schizophrenia is not a smorgasbord where you can pick and choose symptoms. It is an all or nothing thing in most cases.
Glad to "hear" from you again. It has been a while.
No I dont wanna have these symptoms I just prefer not to take the pills I feel like they block my thinking processes therefore I smoke pot because it makes me feel better i guess. I'm actually going to get a case worker so I can stay on top of my intake because I always say I'll take em and I dont so I probably need someone to monitor me its hard to stay on schedule by myself I get distracted so easily. I will definitely go see that specialist I'm calling sometime next week.
Bad updated news for me is that the last time I smoked pot I smoked alot and ended up having unprotected sex with my boyfriend and may have to give up some things if I turn up pregnant. *crossing my fingers* that im not.
Thanks for your support.