Theres this society that nobody knows about. I created it years ago in my mind. So many different people have joined/been created over the years. Its perfect for me because i control the situations, attitudes, complications, personalities and the subject of all conversations. I trust them because i created them. Its a whole new world in there it changes by the day in situation and personalities change with my age. Theres probably no way medication can help stop that which is what i like. I feel like in someway medication has taken my life away from me in that all the voices and visual hallucinations are gone most of the voices were really good friends who helped me through my days and even in school which i thought was awesome i only the visual hallucinations because i got used to them beeing there its not to say i dont still have them or that i dont appreciate what my doctor and medications have done to get me where i am today its just i miss it in a way thats not completely irrational. Thats why im glad the meds dont seem to have take my society away from me i dont think i could live without it. It's like a place to retreat to at the end of the day or relieve stress or if something goes wrong in my actual life i can go there and express my feelings about the day even though theres no feedback from other voices its really just the inner more smarter me fixing problems for me when i couldnt do it if i was in touch with reality. It just seems better to retreat to my mind. Plus with this whole paranoid thought that people are watching me with cameras everywhere i go its better to be there in my mind or just asleep sometimes.